I never really knew what I wanted to do with my life, everyone around me was going to college and doing some gap year traveling or working. I wasn’t sure how they were paying for the traveling but they were doing it and I was jealous at every turn. I did end up at school but it felt like I was always jealous fo what other people were doing and I was just going through the motions. I kept comparing my life and my choices to what other people were doing in that very moment, I just couldn’t get out of my own way and focus on what I was doing I should of focused on what I was getting done, my time at school the time that is suppose to be the best of your life before you become and adult and I could only focus on what this person did on break or who someone was dating. It was just hard for a while to understand my life is mine and that I should only do what makes me happy and experience what I want to experience and that if I truly wanted something I should work for it. I know sometimes its easier to admire then to be a part of, but if you become yourself you’ll realize your experiences can change your life if you actually work to live it.